i deserve

i deserve someone who can love me as much as i love myself.
who loves me more than how much i love myself.
someone who wants to soothe me in the middle of the night when i failed or crippling with anxiety.
one who can't help but hug me in the middle of broad daylight because he's proud of me.
i deserve someone who understands the importance of self-love.

i deserve someone who believes i'm the third most beautiful person on the planet, after his mother and maybe his sister.
whose heart flutters when i so much as smile, blushes because his heart is oh my god.
someone who is furious whenever i say i'm not as pretty as other girls because i'm much more than pretty; an avid believer that i'm beautiful.
who, even when his friends' jaws drop whenever that pretty girl on campus passes by, his mind wanders to me and stays there.
i deserve someone who sees my beauty, even if i can't.

i deserve someone who both supports and challenges my ideas.
enough so that we finish each other's sentences but settles arguments civilly.
who corrects my wrongs and encourages my rights.
getting excited whenever i caught an inspiration yet stays up all night when i can't find one.
i deserve someone who pursues self-development.

i deserve someone who isn't afraid of my power.
who doesn't feel threatened by my success but rather is overjoyed by it.
who continues achieving things bigger than me and pushing me to top it.
who climbs the rocks and the mountains with me, so that we're together every step of the way from the bottom until we reach the top.
i deserve an alpha male who wants an alpha female.

i deserve to be loved in the little moments that matter.
in each 'i'll walk you to your door'.
in every 'i bought you food.'
in the occasional 'tell your mom and your brother i said hi'.
i deserve to be remembered whenever.

i deserve someone who falls in love with the galaxy within me.
who thinks my smile lights up the whole town.
who sees rainbows dancing and storms brewing in my eyes.
who draws constellations on my palms.
i deserve to be someone's universe.

but before that, he deserves a me who loves myself enough to be able to love him even more.
a me who believes i'm beautiful so i can see how beautiful he is, even when he thinks he's not.
a me who constantly fights to be better that either we fight our battles together or he hands me the dagger i use to win my wars.
a me who remembers that he drinks his coffee with two spoons of sugar and prefers the double knot on his tie because the little things are the important ones.
a me, a complete galaxy of my own, adjoining with another galaxy that is him, creating a new universe of us.

i do not deserve to be loved as such yet.
but one day, i will be someone who deserves to be loved like i'm the only one that matters.
and i will love someone who deserves to be loved like he's the only one that matters.